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00062. Day maker

So our dynamic has finally made itself useful. Could not have asked for a better partner or promo team. :) 

00061. Self-sufficiency at its finest. 

I’ve been working (ish) and these are the products of my hard work. First big purchase with hard-earned money: iPhone 5. Second big purchase: 50mm Prime Lens and everything else I got from my Christmas money. :) Self-sufficiency. 

00060. The littlest monster and his random day to day quirks. 

Today, it consisted of the littlest monster barging in my room, five balloons tied to his waist saying, “Do you have more balloons? I’m still not flying.” 

Five minutes later, when I go out to check my mail I see him in the courtyard looking like this. Oh, Julian. 

00059. To Feeling Like A Kid

This weekend, I forgot I had responsibilities and turned into a trigger happy, killing machine (kind of). (Making a list because I don’t want to forget, something I picked up from Beb’s happy blog)

  • Sleepover 
  • Food Camp
  • The A Team (fail covers)
  • Candlewax Cockroach 
  • Bitchy Songwriting
  • “Shut Up, John.”
  • CleverBot
  • “I’m so sexy.” Facebook hacking 
  • Jaime Ozamiz we love you hihi
  • WAX IS STICKY (why would anyone use that??)
  • “Your hair isn’t following.” -___-
  • Nail painting (ugly right hand c/o Iya)
  • Housewarming
  • Awkward Homily -___-
  • Shawarma c/o Kuya Luke
  • Katniss Everdeen lang ang peg HAHA (Good job, Iya) 
  • Sent an arrow flying over the gate (twice) (oops) 
  • Call of Duty!! 
  • “Rj! AIM!!” 
  • Tag team
  • Friendly Fire
  • Walking Dead 
  • Iya is mean (and I say this very lovingly) 
  • Nerf Wars 
  • A Weekend with The Family, Your Little Monsters, Your First Boy Best Friend Ever and The Boy that You Run to When Shit Goes Down (except shit hasn’t exactly been going down, it’s just good to have him around)

If I had a happy jar it would be overflowing right now. Good weekend. Good break from everything. :) 

00058. “I am not a sad story.”

To more nights like this with these two boys. :) Overflowing. 

00057. I got to play F5 in our mini production of Stages of Love! 

Back in 2011, I was the Head Stage Manager of the Stages of Love run and since then I promised myself that if I got the chance, I’d audition and gun for the role of F5. This year, the Core decided to do another run of SOL for the Valentine’s Prod with Spring Awakening as the finale and we all know you can’t be in both. 

Lucky for me, they decided to have a mini-production and Aldrich (who played my M5) forced me to audition for it and I got the role. So technically, I got to be in both this sem! :) 

00056. Sembreak 2012, My Favorite By Far

Oct 13:

  • Last day of school. 
  • Got a text from Claude that I will be playing F5 in the Stages of Love mini production. Got a text from Aldrich that he’s playing my M5! Found out that Boo was in it too! Wallflower happy feels :)
  • Bonfire
  • Sem-Ender!
  • “We have an announcement to make. Guys, kami na ni Aldrich.” 

Oct 14:

  • Went home to Los Baños. 
  • Food-tripping at Liliw with the family. (will post pictures soon!) 
  • Crammed my movement piece with Iya. 

Oct 15:

  • Spring Awakening auditions
  • My photo-finish bonus paper that was due at 8 and I started working on at 6:30! I got to submit it at 7:57 (not bad, methinks)
  • Da Vinci with the Benders and Mama Cassie
  • SA auds practice for Aldrich  

Oct 16:

  • First Stages of Love rehearsal with the Wallflower Trio and my amazeballs castmates
  • Ate at Eat with the SOL cast and artistic team (a.k.a Dar and Ber)
  • CJ’s Birthday! 
  • Got a text about Spring Awakening Callbacks and so did my wallflower boys :) 
  • Called back for Martha (almsot fell of my chair in shock)

Oct 17:

  • Banahaw photoshoot in the morning (yay work!)
  • Stages of Love reh! Blocking and runs! 
  • Callbacks practice at my place! 

Oct 18:

  • Callbacks. ‘Nuff said. (I can honestly say that I have never fought so hard for a role in my life)
  • Partner dance with Booboo! Nerves and the feels. 

Oct 19:

  • Stages of Love reh! More runs! 
  • Woman in Black with the SOL cast and team. 
  • “First one to scream loses!”
  • Bizu and Macarons :3 (nomnomnom) 
  • TBoy c/o Rebber Ducky! 
  • STUDIPITY and ANTEATER 
  • HE SHOOK MY HAND!!! (Jeremy Domingo) 

Oct 20:

  • Grades release! Despite everything, Dean’s List, baby! 
  • Went home to Los Baños!
  • Spring Awakening soundtripping with the family (while explaining everything that’s happening in every song) 
  • Nerves. Nerves. Nerves. Nerves. 
  • Swim away the nerves. 
  • Got an email and text that I got Martha in Spring Awakening. Cried like a baby. 
  • What a day. :D 

Oct 21:

  • Manila. Los Baños. Manila. Los Baños. 
  • PlevSem Day 1 
  • Grocery shopping at SM Supermarket (LB) 
  • Werewolf, Little Girl and Cop 
  • Counter Strike!! WAHH
  • Swimming the night away
  • Chicken! 
  • Arjo bleeding-forehead stress :| 
  • Roomies with my wallflower boys :) Booboo insisting he must be in the middle with the argument that he is.. “Charlie.”
  • “I am the manliest in this trio.” (UH, NO BEB.)

Oct 22

  • PlevSem Day 2 
  • Wake up call by the Wallflower boys -___-
  • BABY BABY BABY OHHHH to wake up Dardar 
  • Vote. Vote. Vote. Vote. Vote. 
  • Made an awesome lunch with the Sec-Gen team! Mmm potatoes and cheese :3 
  • Swimming~~
  • Chicken
  • Made dessert with Megara while dancing to 90s music!
  • Slept in the middle <3 (and woke up feeling quite safe) :)

Oct 23

  • PlevSem Day 3
  • Enlistment AHHHHH 
  • Classmates with Mama Berr :) 
  • Classmates with Aldrich!! <3 (Boo better loadrev to our class) 
  • Got my FA class. No need to manual reg. :) No classes MFS. Hihi. 
  • 4 hour drive home. 
  • “I hear a mashup coming alonggg!” 
  • “Boo, take it away… Very Gooooood.” “Nikki, have you been shy all along?”

Oct 24

  • Stages of Love reh! 
  • Shopping day with mama and dinner date with her and dad :)
  • Nomnom food from Cibo (I a fut and huppi one)  

Oct 25

  • Stages of Love reh! 
  • Happy blogging about my wallflower boys :) 
  • Ohnoooo it’s raining hard :s 
  • Work work work

Oct 26

  • First show!!
  • Rehearsals at my place! Reblocked everything. WEOWWW 
  • Charlie’s Burger (my first time to try!)
  • Briggy Hall
  • SRO with.. uh, very important guests. 
  • The crazy bunch watched and my little monsters were laughing the entire time! :) Great, great feedback. 
  • SM to look for cat ears for my costume. Ended up making our own. Actually, Aldrich made them for me. 
  • Jollibeeeee
  • “I’m a cat, duh.” Aldrich - mouse. Boo - dog. Cliquish. 
  • Happy Birthday Roxci and Tricia! :) Fiamma. Interesting. 

Oct 27

  • Beautiful wedding ceremony and reception! (missed the wedding tho, did not wake up oops)
  • Chill at my place before the show :) 
  • Off to Briggy! 
  • Nerves bulimic. Crush bulimic. BLEGHH. 
  • Shaking during the opening number (and WHYYYY LORD HAHA, I do not understand)
  • Broke my shoe during the show! Intense. :)) 
  • Last show :( Extended run?? 
  • Mercato! 
  • Silent wars and my lovely wingmen. :) 
  • RING OUT. :))
  • Awesome food and awesome people. 

For the rest of the break, I will rest. Play video games. Rest some more. I am in a good place. :)

00055. My Patrick and Charlie :)

I have always been one of the boys, have always gotten along better with guys, grew up running around pretending to be sumo-wrestlers with guys or going home at four in the morning playing Counter Strike with the guys. That’s just the way it’s always been so it’s not surprising that my best friends are guys. 

You know, growing up, I always wanted a guy best friend. I always thought, hey wouldn’t it be awesome to have someone treat you like a princess, all overly protective and caring and loving and at the same time have someone to play video games with until what time in the morning. Always thought it’d be awesome to have someone pick you up from your house to bring you ice cream when you’re sad. You know. Typical, cliche idea of a guy best friend. 

HA. Was I wrong! 

Guy best friends are amazing, that part I am completely sure of, but everything else I imagined, yup, those’re for the movies. 

Yes, of course they are protective but treat you like a princess? How about, the two (three in my case) of you are watching movies on a laptop and one of them gets bored and decides to hit you with a pillow - straight smack on your face? Yup, typical day with guy best friends. 

Or - you watch a scary play or a horror movie and the theme of the day is “first one to scream (like a girl) loses” and they both bet against you. What’s new? 

Or you guys are swimming and you shout, “Don’t push me! My top will fall off!” And they shout, “Wala ka namang boobs eh (It’s okay you don’t have boobs!)” and push you regardless. (Should’ve seen that one coming)

You can spend an entire day getting bullied - with comments like lalaki ka naman eh (but you’re a guy!) or “say “Nagkandarapa”” - a word I have a hard time singing for some reason - down to the two of them making fun of your crush (or your type) and none of that would be surprising (or offensive). 

It’s just really how it is. Perks of having boy best friends. 

They will make you feel like you look like shit - and have fun doing so (don’t take it personally, they secretly think you’re beautiful ;) HAHA). They will play with your arms and prod at your weight issues. They will forget you’re a girl and be will be unbelievably crass. They will run in your room at eight in the morning trying to wake you up just because they feel like it. They will NOT approve of the guy you like (trust me, it gets hard). They will make fun of your pictures and your singing face. They will try to make your sister spill all your high school secrets - AND they will blackmail you with it. They will tell you to sleep at the side to challenge how “brave” you are even if you only really want to stay in the middle because you’re falling off the bed. 

The list goes on! 

But - (luckily these two have a tendency to overcompensate) - they will let you ride shotgun and call the shots on crazy, spontaneous “adventures”. They will hold your hand all the way to the bathroom when your contacts get out of place (because they pushed you in the pool) and wait for you to get out. They will parade you around the mall, sandwiched between them, pretending to be your dates, cause you’re cool and you date two boys at the same time, same place. They will agree to accompany you as you look at shoes and stand there, waiting while you decide which version of the book has the nicest cover. They will pick you up at home and bring you home if you have no ride or walk you all the way home if their cars aren’t there. They will (gladly) finish all your leftover food and pick up the phone in the middle of the night just in case you need someone to talk to. They will listen to you rant and rave about boys (even if they don’t approve) and they will prove to be awesome wingmen when the opportunities arise. They will hold your hand when you see your ex for the first time after the break up and stand guard while you try and pick a wedgie.

My first time to be the only girl in a trio and despite all the bullying, I have never felt so safe. Last weekend, I woke up sandwiched between these two boys. It was the first time in so long that I’ve ever felt refreshed. Like I was actually able to get some rest. We slept early (by our standards) and woke up early, ready to face the next day. It was good. To know that the next day was going to be possibly as crazy as the last was. And to know that they were going to be by my side regardless.

This year has been hard for the most part, but the blessings have been abundant. These two. Always more than enough. 

00054. “Truly, Heaven must feel like this.”

00053. Spring and Summer, every other day. 

I got to perform this with two of my favorite people. :) Happy Lara is happy.